Sometimes you need to get away from your friends in order to encounter God fully. Intimacy prospers when no one else but you and Him are together; solitude promotes vulnerability in front of the father because you can no longer hide behind the worship music, behind your friends, or behind your pastor.
It seems more simple to seek God when you are at church, the music is loud and you're in an atmosphere of people who are also seeking God at the same time, but what about at home?
What about when you're by yourself in your bedroom and it's just you and Him?
No distractions, no people, no worship band on an elevated stage.
It's hard because, what are you suppose to do, what are you suppose to say? Is there some sort of prayer that you are suppose to pray in order to summon his presence?
You have absolutely no structure on how you're suppose to spend intimate time with God, and in the long run, that's what makes your relationship with him so personal and meaningful. He's not having the same encounter with you with anyone else; your relationship with him is completely unique to you and you alone.
No one can worship God the way that you worship God because no one else on the planet is exactly like you. He didn't make you on accident, he made you because there is no one else on the planet like you, therefore you have a distinct reason to be on the earth. And this is why he wants a personal relationship with you so badly, this is why he craves connection with you where it's just you and him.
This is why you feel lonely all of a sudden, like your friends ditched you, or it seems like all of a sudden people don't care about your existence. When it feels like you have been completely given up on and are not cared about, it's because other relationships can serve as a distraction, and intimacy with God can only prosper when it's just you and Him.
You can only extend your arms in surrender when you have room around you to do so.
